Pretty much I live my life still believing and acting like I am in my early 20's. In fact, I might even still think I am in my teens since I still LOVE teeny bopper movies, talk like an 80's throwback (awesome, cool, etc.) and generally say things that make me think- "do normal 30+ year olds talk like this?"
But next month I am turning 35. 35..... It's kind of freaking me out. I don't know- 35 just doesn't sound all that young. It's flying in the face of my beliefs that I am really just a kid. But 35? Eeewwwhhhh. So I am dealing with that.
But last night it got even worse. My dad was over for dinner. He has been married to my stepmother for just about 17 years. I was 18 years old when they got married- just about out of high school. At 18, your father doesn't have an age, or minimally, he is, of course, OLD.
Well, Don't I fall to the floor freaking out when I find out that he was MY AGE when he married her!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What I would have perceived as old, was actually in fact, really really young..... RIGHT????!!!!! I don't know, I can't even explain the feelings I am having about it exactly. I just can't believe he was that young. Or maybe I can't believe that I am just that "old".
Whatever the case, ultimately, I truly do believe that age is a state of mind and of being. I don't have to get mentally old. I can keep on believin' that I am young, and it will keep me energetic, active, vibrant and well, yes, perhaps clueless. But so be it.
In the meantime, just let me freak out a little bit that I might not really be as young as I think.
This too shall pass.
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hmm, and how old do I feel hearing my daughter say she is feeling old???????? AGH. I still feel in my head as if I am a kid. Of course the aches and pains bring me back to reality really quick. It is a state of mind they say, but I think the mirror says different. a box of hair dye once a month says something too. I am in this boat with you Jen and it is sinking . haha. MOM
I can't believe you are 35. But I don't think that's old. You look fabolous and when Carlos first met you b/c he met you first he thought you were our age. So it really is about how you feel. Don't go starting to feel old, cause then you'll really start to look old.
Love Ya, Jenn
Yep...35 passed. And 36. And 37. And so on. But who would know? You are a fountain of youthful enthusiasm. Keep living in denial!!
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